What I’m Wearing
* J Brand indigo skinny jeans cuffed …last seen here
* Forever 21 brown cowl neck jersey long sleeve
* Vintage Ralph Lauren tweed blazer …seen here and here w/ jeans
* Red Monkey Designs brown leather belt with brass buckle
* Vintage brass chains …here + more …seen here with outfit
* Gold-tone hoop earrings
* Via Spiga brown lace-up wedge booties …last seen here
* Tom Ford sunglasses
* Burberry wallet …seen here …and um, I want this bag please 😉
Some of these shots came out so dark and I just love them.
I’m trying to look outside myself and find beauty in everything …taking the time to smell the roses, if you will. Sometimes it’s the only way to get out of my head and stop the domino effect of irrational thought/fear/worry cycle I sometimes get lost in. I get wrapped up in what’s wrong and focus on that instead of trying to find solutions for what is bothering me. In other words: I think far too much.
My husband reminded me last night that I sort of get wrapped up in fantasy {something I tend to accuse him of when he gets lost in video game heaven} …in the sense that I watch unrealistic shows, am immersed in fashion and the culture that goes with it, work in an art gallery surrounded by art I can’t afford and forget to see the reality in life. It’s easy to think you have nothing when viewing “the fabulous life of” type of shows …which everything seems to be. Even in sitcoms where the family is supposed to be “middle class” or “just getting by” the house they live in is a house in my neighborhood or the like {since most shows are filmed in LA -and living in LA doesn’t help either}. But a house in my neighborhood is 700K and up …and that is nowhere near middle class affordability. And where most times I am not really affected by it or can blow it off, when I get in a certain place in my head, everything is a hit. And then it just spirals.
And you know what it all leads back to? A baby. A super tiny {alien-like} human that I cannot seem to create …and it’s driving me insane. And I need to figure out how to deal with it asap or I’m going to have to go and get something prescribed for it.
