I feel like I have so much to say on this topic, yet the simple text on these images sums it up so well that I don’t even know where or how to start.
But I guess I will start by saying that I am not where I want to be yet… mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and it really gets to me sometimes and I find it hard to acknowledge where I am in comparison to my past and see that I HAVE made progress, especially when I seem to backtrack sometimes and make decisions based on hope and heart and love rather than logic and knowledge and common sense.
Physically, yes, for the most part I am very happy in my new home, right on the lake, in control of my days and filled with a creativity I haven’t seen or felt in years… and that feels so wonderful that I’m inspired to do more of it and dive in deeper… and that’s exactly where I want to be. And because I feel that so strongly now as a sense of who I am, the moment it begins to diminish, I can pinpoint who and what in my life might be leading me astray… and generally, it’s always the same answer, however, I keep giving chances hoping for change. And the only change I ever see is within myself, and it’s rarely, if ever, positive for more than a few days time. And then I have to get back on track… start over emotionally, and it feels like an addiction of sorts with withdrawals and relapse and trying again and again. And the only addiction I have as reference is smoking cigarettes and boy did I love those cigarettes and boy were they bad for me… in fact, I still love them and that doesn’t make them any less toxic. And just because I love them doesn’t mean I should start smoking again 😞
However, whatever form I am in at the moment I find myself in… is still further than I was and that is progress and something to be celebrated and not judged… and I bet, if you take a second to really look at where you are now, in any capacity, physical or mental, love or logic, you’ll realize you have made progress as well and you are further along than you were last year, last month, yesterday… even if you feel like you’re starting all over again today.
Never stop choosing yourself… One day at a time.
You may not be where you want to be yet in life but you’re also not where you used to be… take a second to realize how far you’ve come
In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call the Physics of the Quest; a force in nature, governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of quest physics goes something like this; if you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter old resentments and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. ~ Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love
Images are stills from a reel I shared a few weeks ago: You can check it out here!
Happy Sunday Lovecats!
Take special care of yourselves today… and always 💜
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