What I’m Wearing…
* Title: Marc E. Bassy – Plot Twist ft. Kyle… Plot twist, I never thought it would end up like this… I always thought it would only be one kiss… One became a hundred, Oh, all of a sudden, I’m saying, “I love you”
I’m a little angry today… I can feel it.
I’m in the kind of low-patience-angry mood where I could be doing anything at all when I suddenly have a flash of rage and I want to either scream at the top of my lungs and run around flailing my arms like a mad woman OR I want to pick up the nearest object to me and throw it as far as I can with all the force I have in my body.
I’m that kind of angry today. And I don’t really even know why.
I mean, I do know why… because I’m currently in the process of breaking old habits and creating new and better alternatives to replace the old habits with… and it’s not easy.
Old habits are hard to break. Bad habits are hard to break. New habits aren’t easy to form.
They say it only takes 21 days to create a new routine and turn something into a habit but why does is seem like we just fall into bad habits without any work at all and creating healthy habits that are good for us take so much work?
A few years ago I read this book The Power of Habit and it was life-changing. What I took most from it is that if you turn anything into a habit -like brushing your teeth, it’s just always on your to-do list- then you can create lasting positive change in your life and in your work. And it’s true. And it works.
But deciding to implement something new in your life and turning it into a habit is a little bit different than breaking a bad habit. It’s difficult, sure, but for instance, learning to practice meditation every day isn’t going to make you want to lose your shit and have a temper tantrum like a toddler. You miss a day, you either do it later or begin again tomorrow until it’s a habit you just do every day without thinking about.
Breaking a bad habit that your body and mind is used to physically and mentally, is torture. On every level. Which is why it’s much easier to just continue the bad habits so that life doesn’t hurt so much.
But how will we ever grow if we never test ourselves? If we never challenge ourselves, there is no evolution. If we have all the answers, we’re not open to new ideas. If we always go in the same direction, there’s no possible way we can see the beauty that is waiting for us in all the other directions.
So as much as it hurts and as torturous and challenging as it is, I know that it’s not long term… that in a few days or a few weeks or a few months, I’ll look back from another level with pride, knowing I made it through the difficult moments, grew stronger for it, and allowed life to open up avenues and paths that I couldn’t see before.
Because as long as a day, a week, or a month of pain may feel right now, in the grand scheme of things, it’s literally nothing at all.
Happy Tuesday Lovecats!
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