What I’m Wearing…
* Denim shirt by Madewell
* Lace bodysuit by Adore Me (the one I’m wearing is s/o but this bodysuit is similar)
* Black jeans by FRAME
* Sunglasses by 3.1 Phillip Lim
* Classic town bag by Balenciaga
* Cut out suede ankle boots by Chinese Laundry
* Title: Calvin Harris – Slide ft. Frank Ocean & Migos…It’s my favorite part, we see the lights, they got so far… It went too fast, we couldn’t reach it with our arms… Wrist on a wrist, a link of charms, yeah… Laying, we’re still a link apart
The days are finally longer and the sun is finally shining and I feel a sense of hope that I may not have felt since the fall/winter time change back in November. I’m guessing with spring just around the corner, many of you are feeling the same way. This time of year brings renewal and rebirth and new blooms and a feeling that everything is going to be okay… but it’s not quite spring yet, it’s that transitional space where we’re tire of waiting and we want it all to happen RIGHT NOW. (well, that’s where I am anyway)
So much of what began last year will soon to have closure, which is a good thing, because it feels as though the past is still my present in so many ways, but I also feel a huge lack of control at the moment, which is giving me a sense of well, panic really… because instead of working on one thing at a time, one day at a time, and acknowledging the little bit of growth, I’m a bit overwhelmed with everything right now. Wonder and worry and fear creep in and then patience and my strong sense of knowing and intuition is replaced with a frantic urgency to MAKE IT ALL HAPPEN NOW and when there’s no possible way that can happen, I find myself wanting to pull away from everything and run.
Lately I’m either too busy to think or have too much time and I overthink. Trying to find the balance in it all is proving a difficult task because everything is in constant flux. I often think if just ONE of the “things” could settle right now, and on a positive note, I could relax a little, but the truth is that I need to relax through all of it no matter what and just be patient.
I think if I’ve learned anything in life, it’s that patience and a sense of constant knowing that everything is going to be alright no matter what -is absolutely key to keeping balanced mentally… and I’ve also learned that I’m not very good at it, and maybe that’s why I always seem to have a constant test to that theory so I can master it. But I find that I can only be patient for so long before I start wanting more answers, faster results, and things to happen now. Which is all silly really, because if I’m true to myself and look at my past, I remember that I get bored soon after accomplishing something because I love the passion that is inevitable in the journey and look for something new to start… because it’s my favorite part so often.
I suppose the moral of the story is to just relax, have faith in the journey, know that the destination is in sight, let go of all the worry and urgency, and just allow it to unfold as it may and come into my life when it’s supposed to.
Easier said than done, but if that’s my current challenge, I shall take it.
Happy Thursday Lovecats!
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