Happy New Year Lovecats!
To say that I am happy to leave 2024 behind is putting it lightly, on the other hand, it almost feels like time has just been a complete blur since 2020 and that now, SOMEHOW, we’re finally stepping out of that… maybe it’s just me, but the last 5-10 years have been pretty rough!
Although I had many blessings in 2024, mostly in the way of hard lessons, it will always be the year of letting go and starting new for me. I had to make really difficult decisions to walk away from things that weren’t healthy for me, to leave people and places that I loved behind in order to be able to walk into my future. It was the year of new beginnings and starting new things, planting seeds that will hopefully bloom in 2025 into miracles that make all the sacrifice and repeated heartache of 2024 – worth it.
I still struggle with my past, almost every day, but working towards a brighter future keeps me motivated to focus on creating new things and shining as bright as I can.
LAST YEAR, instead of setting resolutions, I made a list of all the ways I wanted to feel in 2024. I was so low mentally at the end of 2023 that writing a list of positive feelings that I wanted to feel (but wasn’t at the time) seemed like a better way to move forward than resolving to make changes among all the uncertainty in my life. When on a whim I wrote my original feelings list on NYE2023, I had no intention of walking away from my business and the life I had built for the previous 7 years. I had no idea that just a month and a half later, on Valentine’s Day 2024, I’d feel like my only choice to set myself free was to leave it all behind and even though I made the choice, I was devastated.
I started writing my Substack then, and a month later made another tough decision to leave Lake Arrowhead, the place I called home for the past 12 years, in another attempt at freedom, and immediately started house hunting down the mountain. If you subscribed to my substack, you watched this all play out in real time, where I started vlogging twice a week about what I was going through, tears and all. I was a wreck, but I made it through, even though sometimes it still feels like it’s tugging at my heart strings. I have since deleted all my videos there (62 in total 🤯 ) because I didn’t want to take any of that pain with me into 2025. I wanted to leave my broken heart, my unfulfilled expectations, unresolved relationships and the deep penetrating sadness that I worry will stay with me forever, back in 2024 where it belongs, in a time capsule, just like that small town life I led where I once was starry-eyed about opening a new business with two people who I thought I would get to share insanely amazing memories with and unbelievably happy times, but I left bruised and broken instead, forced to grieve all the lives I had AND all the lives I was promised, but never got. I am truly devastated by the entire experience that I poured my whole heart and soul into and I don’t wish to remain identified with all that was, even though it still weighs so heavy on my heart. I don’t think I’ll ever return to that mountain willingly, or look at the lake and feel the magic it once held. Now it only holds memories of darkness and a past I wish never to return to; a place I thought I could change for the better, but that instead changed me -forever.
And now I can create a new lake of my own and fill it with all the tears I’ve cried.
I have lived at my new house since the end of August, so just over 4 months now and I truly feel a peace and calm I haven’t felt in ages. I have begun new things to pour my focus and creativity into and if I may be so bold as to say that I feel like I am heading for a life I dreamed about 30 years ago that I somehow put on hold – but now, after all the lessons and wisdom that has undoubtedly come with it, I am ready for it. I realize now that life is too short and too precious to be spending even ONE moment on regret and so I head into this year and hopefully all the years that follow, living a truly authentic life that I love. I hope you can do that too 💞
SOOOO, since this worked for me last year, I’m doubling down this year and created a new FEELINGS printable for you, if you’d like to try it for yourself. 🖨️ FREE PRINTABLE DOWNLOAD: click here and hit print (or click on the image below, save it to your computer or phone and then print). Hope it helps you create a life you love! CHEERS to 2025! Let’s make it memorable ⭐
I’ve also shared it on YouTube…
If you can’t see the video below, click here: Do THIS Instead of Setting New Year’s Resolutions
And here’s a little fun from NYE!
You can see more in my Instagram Reel HERE
A vintage ’60s Balmain mini dress/tunic top (I’ve never gotten to wear!) over crushed velvet flares was a fun and random pull with square toe Mary janes (these are similar in patent), but I loved the look!
GOOD eFFING BYE 2024!
Happy New Year Lovecats!
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Hello 2024! Positive High-Vibe Feelings ONLY + Free Printable
