What I’m Wearing…
* Vintage pink sweater from the 80s (locally thrifted recently) and it’s probably more of a dusty rose or mauve. Everything was MAUVE in the 80s. I also recently bought a MAUVE lamp at a different local thrift shop for the MAUVE lampshade it had. She wouldn’t sell me the shade alone, saying it’s a specific “burgundy” and the only shade that will go with the lamp and charged me 40 for it. I had a full conversation with her in my head basically saying any white shade would go with the lamp, but instead of voicing it I just gave her the cash. The shade is working perfectly in my closet room (which I have not finished yet) but I am not sure the lamp will make the cut. Anyway, I’ve found a handful of fun similar vintage and new sweaters in the shopping widget below
* My favorite Vintage-inspired Jeans of the moment from AGolde with the double pockets on the back – I just wore a few posts ago
* Vintage oversized knit cardigan I thrifted ages ago and still love and wear… also seen here and here
* Super old dusty rose boots, which I was surprised I could even wear without limping… I think roller skating (though I haven’t in months) has strengthened my ankle to the point where I can wear a bit of a heel again. These chunky heels are about 4″ I think – Also, for the record, I think in the 80s this outfit would have been complete with a pair of cowboy boots a’la Lori Singer in Footloose… I don’t own any, but pink cowboy boots really would have pulled me up off my knees lol, you see what I did there? 😉
* Louis Vuitton Neverfull MM but in the 80s I feel like the LV Speedy was the way to go
* Old Phillip Lim sunglasses I’ve been wearing daily
* Title: The Knocks – Slow Song (with Dragonette)… I’m obsessed with this song at the moment. It’s on loop. It’s like disco-country-dolly-parton-diana-ross with a cherry on top and has got me happy dancing and singing all over the house.
The first comment on Youtube sums it up quite nicely… This song has a secret it will never tell. It’s mysterious and it’s dark and it won’t look you in the eye. But it’s also hopeful and warm and smart. It’s a damn near perfect song and visually stunning video.
A few days ago I caught myself dancing in my bedroom to whatever song was playing on my kitchen Alexa as I was getting dressed for my day. The dogs followed and sat on the bed watching and cheering me on because they’re my biggest fans 😉 while I smiled goofily dancing bare feet on my fluffy rug.
I felt so light and free and happy in that tiny moment in time…
AND THEN… as if fear knocked on the door, I suddenly stopped and thought to myself don’t have too much fun, don’t be too happy because then something bad will happen.
Do you ever do that? Do you get scared when things feel too good? When you feel too happy? Scared that something bad is going to happen and take it all away?
I don’t feel like I do it too often, but I have caught myself in the past and so I looked it up. And of course it has a name: Cherophobia, because everything has a name and I don’t think I actually have this “disorder” because immediately after my fear thought I said NO, I’M GOING TO ENJOY THIS MOMENT WHILE IT’S HERE and started smiling and dancing again.
I kicked fear to the curb. And then as the song ended and I finished getting dressed I thought… BE AS HAPPY AS YOU WANT TO BE IN ALL THE MOMENTS YOU CAN because we are literal miracles and life is neither good nor bad, it just IS.
We characterize things and label them (good or bad) the way they affect US -but someone else might have the exact same thing happen to them and see it in a completely different way, react to it in a completely different way and both are neither right nor wrong, they just are and life just is… life.
So dance when you want to dance and sing at the top of your lungs and smile when things make you truly happy and cry when you are sad and feel all the emotions when your body tells you to because your body knows best. It runs like a machine without you even telling it what to do. It has infinite knowledge that we can’t even comprehend yet here we are running from happiness avoiding tears and hiding from life.
If you can reframe scary thoughts about emotions as just being ENERGY PASSING THROUGH YOU AND RELEASING in any way it needs to, you might just allow it all to happen naturally… whether it feels good or bad.
Moral of the story… do all the things that make you happy as much as you can and allow yourself to bask in the glory of it… feel it. Feel all of it. And then let it go.
Happy Hump Day Lovecats!
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