What I’m Wearing…
* Title: Spandau Ballet – True… I bought a ticket to the world…But now I’ve come back again
Today I am 41.
Last year, turning 40 was admittedly, a bit difficult. I dreaded it. I worried about it. I wondered how on earth I was turning 40, childless and in the middle of a divorce. I wondered how I’d manage, how I’d make it through. I had no idea what an insanely crazy year I had ahead of me.
The days since my last birthday have been difficult, to say the least. Everything changed. My life turned upside down. I set out to find myself anew and instead lost what felt like everything I had ever worked so hard for.
I cried. I screamed. I laughed. I learned. I met new friends. I lost old friends. I joined forces and set out on new life adventures. Started new businesses, lost old businesses. Had an insane amount of fun. Had some of the most horrible times in my life. I found myself handcuffed in the back of a police car and then in jail for 17 hours. I made it through one of the worst winters I’d ever experienced – alone. I loved. I lost. My life exploded in more ways than one… and more than anything, in the last 365 days or so, I realized a strength within that I had never known.
Last year is still my present and current situation because everything is still in flux. I have no conclusions or happy endings as of yet… I am rebuilding. I’m on the verge of knowing how everything will turn out, but I’m not there yet. And even though I’m slightly terrified, I know everything will be more than just okay, it will be the best ever… because honestly, there is just no other way. Life is crazy-beautiful. And I am lucky to get to be a part of it.
Happy Thursday Lovecats!
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