What I’m Wearing…
* Free People little black dress with cut-outs… this is from a few years ago but they currently have a similar version that’s just as cute including a top and a maxi dress. Also seen here
* Black bucket hat this is a more affordable bucket hat
* Marc Jacobs sunglasses (old)
* Louis Vuitton Neverfull MM bag
* Snakeskin slides by Freedom Moses – LOVE these on the boat for summer… they have tons of colors/prints and are pretty reasonably priced.
* Title: Lana Del Rey – Chemtrails Over The Country Club… I’ve used this song before, in this post, but it worked so well here, I had to use it again – even though it’s not a favorite.
I watched a random video on TikTok yesterday about how we’re not really living in 2021, that it’s actually 2012 and based on the Mayan calendar, it would almost make sense. I don’t know if I believe it, but having answers about why we’re living through what feels like some version of apocalyptic times, gives me a tiny bit of relief. However, the crazy pandemic just adds to the uncertainty and chaos I’ve been living for the last 5 years and I keep wondering when it’s all going to settle down and go back to normal.
But what is normal?
For me, normal is what feels comfortable and when I think back on my past lives, there are moments and feelings and ease I want to get back to, but not necessarily in the same circumstances, obviously. I mean, there is no part of my past I want to go back to but the feelings of balance and peace and purpose are something I feel like I’ve lost and haven’t been able to get back.
On the other hand, I completely uprooted my life when I felt all of those things because I was also well, bored. Bored to tears. Bored out of my mind… and when I think about it that way all I can say is these last 5 years where I have felt a little lost have been anything but boring. In fact, I’ve lived so much in the moment, caught up in the chaos, I look forward to boring. I look forward to moments of solitude and silence where I have time to think and ponder what the future will hold…
So am I in a grass is always greener situation? Can there be some sort of balance between the two extremes? I suppose that’s the goal I’m after now and maybe I’m inching closer to it and maybe that’s a little scary because -THEN WHAT? What if we were to get everything we think we want and what if we are still confused and off-balance? Then what… ?
If only life were just as simple as we were taught it was… ? Maybe it actually is and we all just get in the way of fate with our lack of trust and overthinking and impatience and need for certainty. Wouldn’t it be as simple as it’s supposed to be if we could all just relax in the knowing that everything is happening exactly the way it’s supposed to be happening in the exact time frame it’s meant to happen in?
It sounds so easy 😉
I recently got to experience the pool at the Lake Arrowhead Country Club thanks to my friend Ana, who is a member and invited me to join her after her tennis lesson a few Wednesdays ago. For as often as I have snuck onto the golf course to take outfit photos and afternoon walks because it’s incredibly beautiful and relaxing (and across the street from my house), you’re not allowed to take advantage of the amenities here unless you’re a member… and membership is pretty expensive.
While of course the membership includes golfing and a golf pro shop, there are also tennis, pickleball, and bocce ball courts, a restaurant (and banquet room), bar, snack bar… and this lovely pool. This was during one of the hottest weeks I think we’ve ever had up here and the pool was mighty refreshing… and the food was incredible too!
And later that day… My Bobe, Trevor… with the sweetest hugs ever 🙂
Happy Hump Day Lovecats!
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