What I’m Wearing
* Vintage leopard {faux-hair} coat …My grandma made this in the 60’s. It is one of my favorite items in my wardrobe. …seen here
* Black jersey turtleneck {from nordstrom.com} with black jersey puff sleeve cowl neck top {Forever 21} layered over. I actually loved the look of the cowl neck with the turtle neck.
* Vintage Calvin Klein {super thin} jeans. These are vintage because I’ve had them for that long. …seen here
* Black patent wedge pumps. Steven by Steve Madden …I have seriously had these forever too.
* Vintage Gucci satchel
* Tom Ford Sunglasses
* D&G watch
* Nicole Miller gold-tone rhinestone drop ball earrings ..love.these. {a bit different to linked version but very similar} got em on gilt.com/fuse
* Ivory Pashmina {in bag}
When my mind is elsewhere and I am uninspired by anything at all, I tend to go straight for classics which always look timeless and pulled together {even if I don’t always feel that way inside}
Yesterday I wanted to write about my experience with the psychiatrist on Tuesday but I just feel like such a downer lately, I decided to post nothing at all …which is admittedly difficult for me but becoming much more frequent as of late. As stated above, my inspiration is running dry, leaving next to nothing in my creativity department. I’m trying so hard to get out of my head but something just brings me right back there. But now, two days later, I am feeling a bit more hopeful.
I’m relieved to have been able to sit down with a specialist and verbally vomit all over her with just enough information for her to confirm that yes, I have a problem with anxiety and no, I do not need a stimulant like Wellbutrin.
While posting may be a bit more sporadic in the coming weeks while I find balance and enjoy my family as the holidays near, I’m hoping to grow and be stronger for it very soon. I’ve always considered my existence as more of a science experiment than a “gift from God” and now I’m just testing a new theory with a little help this time. Hopefully the new year will restore creativity and get my mind working outside of itself instead of inside, where it has been for the last month or so …and I think everyone will benefit from it.
Klever Girl
I visit your blog daily as I do the sartorialist’s, garance’s, sea of shoes. But with your blog, the fact that you look beautiful in every shot is practically a given. Lately I get concerned about your state of mind and I worry as if I’ve known you my entire life. I panic (inside) too and more than your outfits, I care more of you as a person. Wish I could find the words to assure you that everything is going to be OK. One of my favorite sayings is “Everything will be ok in the end. If it is not ok then it is not the end” Hang in there!
TERI REES WANG
You are so sharp!
Finding a way to stay in the “now” is always a challenge these days with all the constant chatter, the addictive thoughts racing through our head. We must find a new addiction, and safe and sane replacement to intervene the chaos.
The lovely science project that you are..proves that you are a gift from God. Know it and own it.
Those shoes are fierce with that coat! Wear them in good health.
diana
I’m so glad I came across your blog and now I’m an avid reader. I love this look on you. You look so chic! I’ve definitely taken some lessons and incorporated them into my style.
Oh yeah…the shoes are killer!
Lawgirl
Dah-yum Maegan, you are FIERCE in that outfit!!
I’m so glad that you are feeling better. Your readers will wait for you – take time for yourself.
amoramor
you are so gorgeous, darling!
ive put a ‘who what wear’ picture about that leopard coat on my blog!!!
Glamour Bbey.
Love every piece of it!
Suzanne
Seeing that you posted today put a smile on my face. Your look inspires me to take a few more risks with my look, a difficult task in my field – law.
I’m glad the Zoloft is helping. It was truly a saving grace for me my senior year of college and might become my friend again come this summer when I take the bar. Have a great day Doll!
Karen Beth
Love the outfit, shoes especially.
I’m on Zoloft and tiredness was also a symptom while I was starting out. It does help but not as much as I’d like it to. Hope it helps you! 🙂
betz
you look perfect!!!! i love your style.
hope everything will be alright with you.
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Fegalves
I come here almost everyday, so I kind of feel that your close to me as a friend. I wish I could find the words to wish you well, really.
All I can say is that I hope everything goes right, that this new year refreshes your soul entirely.
Best wishes,
Fernanda
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Kellie
That is great news. Just in time for you to enjoy the holidays. I hope things continue to get better and easier.
And I am loving those wedges! Wedges are so much easier on my feet than heels. But I will never give up my heels! 🙂
Jacqueline
I love your coat. So pretty. I will stick with you no matter how much you post. My thoughts are with you Maegan. I lost one of my beloved guinea pigs last night and I am quite sad about him. xoxo
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Comsat Keith
Hey, that’s a load of fine photos there Meagan. You sort of look like you’re waiting for your badass loverboy Jailbird-Johnny to be coming over that prison wall any moment, but I could be wrong. Your hair looks just wonderful, the way it sweeps over and down – especially in shot 3 where there’s an attractive separate wisp falling across your shades. As for the striking outfit, I especially like the sexy bare ankle look with the wedge heels. Actually you seem to be admiring those shoes yourself in shot 5. Like, “Oooh, nice!”. I really don’t think anyone would blame you either. You look completely gorgeous, and I’m sure Jailbird-Johnny will agree just as soon as he’s over. Heck, this’ll be one of the best-dressed jailbreaks of all time! 😛
J-Diggety
I love the classic looks, they’re my fave 🙂 They may not feel as creative as you’d prefer, but you are still stunning!
I’ve been reading your blog ninja-like lately, only because I’ve been hella busy with finals and all, but my heart, thoughts and prayers are being sent out to the universe for you… I’m glad your session this week helped!! You will get better, Maegan… I’m a firm believer that awareness is the first, very significant step in making any kind of change. So, you’re aware, you don’t like where you’re at, and while you may not have the answer yet, you will find it, I have faith… *BIG hugs*!!!
And P.S., I just gave you blog aware, so check my blog 😉
xoxo J
Kris
All the best of luck to you Maegan! You’ll crawl out of whatever slump you are in. It happens. I think when you are spending time with family that will help too. Ciao!
Pretty Little World
Hopefully you’ll soon find a tone that’s perfect — loads of luck with that over the next few weeks!!
XOXO
maeghan
I wish you all the things you hope for yourself. 🙂 I hope the holiday season is wonderful for you.
Heidi Renée
So glad things are looking forward (and maybe even up)! Zoloft worked wonders for me in my early twenties. I hope it does the same for you.
Anonymous
I’ve been reluctant to comment on anything because I feel like if I do, it’s a bit of a lie. For years I refused to seek teh proper medical help because I thought that what I was feeling was normal and it would go away.
Finally after years (and thanks to another blogger, Heather of dooce.com), I saw a dr. and have been on medication to help with my depression.
You’re doing great. I’m so glad that you’ve found a dr that you seem to like and understands you. Thank you for trusting us with your battle. It is a battle, but you’re so brave to share with us all. I can’t even share my name, but I’m rooting for you. Happy holidays and best of luck with absolutely everything.
-V
Sal
So glad the process of healing has begun … take care, lady.
♥ Tiffany ♥
i think nikki hilton is copying you lol http://perezhilton.com/2009-12-17-the-gardener-saved-the-day
you are amazing an inspiration with your beauty inside and out!
VaNiTyMeL
oo great coat!love it..
diane
Maegan, that’s really good news, and just in time for the holidays.
Remember….not one single person has it all together. We’re all a bunch of science experiments. Hugs. xo d
Almudena
I really like your coat.
~alison
I am happy for you! This lady seems to understand the med thing much better than the MD. I’m glad you are feeling better about it all. I smiled as I read your post.
And here is a BIG HUG (( )).
And you look great!
When are we hanging out before the holiday craziness?
duckalicious
nice to hear you feel better! hope the calm feeling lasts.
Amy
You look so HOT in this outfit! Gorgeous, Gorgeous!!
I am glad to hear you are feeeling better. You are a great inspiration to me and so many other people.
Big Hugs
Amy
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The Seeker
Gorgeous coat!!!
I’m sure you’ll feel better soon, you’re brave enough…
As a person you faced already 3 major depressions and takes a Prozac every day I might understand you…
This also shall pass, dear.
Much love
xoxo
Bombchell
Love Love the shoes!!!! you look like such a diva in these pics, I love it!
Bombchell
ps: dont worry about the uninspiration, it happens to a lot of people, just take time off, dont worry about it, and let inspiration find you in places you never imagined
susank
I enjoy reading your blog but the last paragraph today forced me to comment– beautiful sentiments that show such great strength! Thank you for posting this. It does help others. You are awesome
Gracinha
Stunning as always!!!!
Love,
Graca
Lori
i loveeee the coat!! you look amazing 😉
anotherfishinthesea
You look fantastic and thanks for updating us on how you are doing…. it sounds like the psychaitrist was at least helpful even if there is still stuff you have to work out 🙂
Susan
I hope you feel better soon. I know depression and anxiety, so I know what you are writing about. I truly believe consulting your psychiatrist will help!
oh and don’t worry about not having inspiration, it happens to everyone… just take your time, and if you don’t feel like blogging, don’t worry. we are going to wait for you here! 🙂
take care, dearest Maegan, xoxo
Dylana
Beautiful coat!
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God Made Me fuNky
Hey!
So glad to hear, the meeting with the psychiatrist went well and the meds are helping. keeping my fingers crossed for you. Keep up your spirits.
love that coat and those wedge heels.
kuhlchikk
love that coat!! I wish you good luck and I love your blog!!
I have an award for you!
http://kuhlchikkmakeup.blogspot.com/2009/12/new-award.html
big hugs
ashlina
O.M.G. I AM IN LOVE WITH THAT COAT..
you are rocking it!
your blog is fantastic.
🙂
Ashley
The animal print coat is to die for! So cool that you can have a piece of your grandmother with you.
Kristin
My thoughts will be with you Megan. I hope that you’re able to find peace and happiness this holiday! And you look like a gorgeous glamazon in that coat!
Rachel Austin
I take Zoloft for anxiety now. I started in June with unexplained anxiety that just got worse. I had no reason for it, it just came and then I couldn’t get rid of it. It created hypochondriac thoughts which I knew deep down inside, were foolish and irrational. I was taking Clonazepam (Klonopin) as needed but was told it was a temporary drug, not a long-term thing. And since I want to try to get pregnant next year, I didn’t want to be on anything harmful. Right now I am on Zoloft 75mg. I feel much better but it’s still a battle at times to control this unexplained anxiety. I have spoken with many doctors who assure me that Zoloft is safe to take while pregnant. I hope it helps you to get through these difficult times. I know how anxiety feels and how helpless you feel when it happens. Especially when there doesn’t seem to be an actual cause to it.
Nickie Frye
Hi! I just discovered your blog & am adding it to my favorites. I love this outfit & am totally blown away that your Gram made this jacket!! That’s some impressive work! I have a vintage shop on etsy & just listed one that’s very similar, but it doesn’t have the sentimental value that yours has. I love that!! xoxo
Nickie Frye
OMIGosh, sorry to be so insensitive. I just read your post (yes, I look at pictures & read later… oops!). Everybody goes through these dry spells. I have tried prescriptions & found out that a good diet & a daily run were more effective & less risky for ME. Totally cliche, but it has really worked! I kept a diary of what I ate & how I felt afterwards, & have modified my diet accordingly. A friend of mine totally swears by that blood type diet. This is to say nothing of spiritual health.