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June 1st 2004 | My Billy


I think the car came just in time – who knows what would have happened
-had you got to the other side

The rational of it all – the contrasting shades
– the symmetry of the morning
could not be duplicated, recreated – or erased

I wish I was still 27 – you would still be here
– instead of in heaven, though I don’t believe it’s real


Billy was a birthday present in 2002 {a 6mo old rescue} and he was taken away two years later – on my birthday.

Not a birthday goes by that I do not think of that morning. The morning I turned 28. The morning Billy McBillerson died. If I told you the story, you wouldn’t believe me.

I found the above poem I wrote in an old journal the other night while searching for something else.

Two pages later, I found this: “Death doesn’t just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.” from The Five People you Meet in Heaven


…and I believe it. Lives WERE changed because of his death. Pep and I became “we” and we saved LeRoy. But I will shed tears every year on my birthday forever and sadly I will be reminded of “her” as well.

billy bed

billy next to red silk throw

billy the boston

boston terrier

Billy the Boston Terrier | RIP William McBillerson, you were so loved… 2002-2004

Maegan Tintari

LA native & lifestyle blogger Maegan Tintari writes daily at sharing beauty & style secrets, including fashion DIYs, how-to nail art manicures, hair tutorials, recipes & home decorating ideas, as well as a look into her personal life, her journey & battle with infertility & recent relocation to the mountains by a lake in search of a better life with her adorable French Bulldog brothers, Trevor and Randy.

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